Sunday, March 18, 2012

Milestones

My baby girl, Kailyn, turns twenty-one on Monday.
I'll leave for work, and she will pack her car and head north,
choosing to celebrate this milestone with her first best friend, her sister Jessica, who lives in Bellingham.


Love those 80's glasses! I used to joke that I "wore" Kailyn most of the first 6 months of her life, either in a front pack or her personal favorite, the back pack.
I canned peaches with her on my back that summer!

A rare moment when she was sleeping!
She started life as a twin, 
(ultrasounds in those days were kind of fuzzy, 
and while I still have it, 
I wouldn't know how to download it)
but her sibling died en utro at 20+ weeks.
I had been put on bed rest 
(with a rambunctious 18 month old).
Yet Kailyn's twin died anyway, 
and I spent the rest of my pregnancy
worried about the left over twin 
(who would be Kailyn one day). 
Her daddy looks so young!
 I don't have a photo, but my first memory in recovery 
is of her daddy sitting next to my bed,
cradling her head in his big hands,
softly whispering words . . . I don't recall what,
watching Kailyn stare steadfastly into his eyes,
and silent tears of gratitude 
flowing from my own,
she was alive
she was safe and sound
with all the important fingers and toes
and ears that could hear
and eyes that obviously could see.

Kailyn helping mommy make a cake!
I was old when she was born, 
and as soon as she was cut loose 
I reminded my doctor not to forget 
about my requested tubal ligation! 
I was, after all . . . forty!
Older parenting isn't for the weak, 
yet I've often felt it's what has kept me young 
(at least at heart . . . the body is still very much aging!)


One of my favorite pictures, Jess was the dress up queen.
But you can tell by those rosy cheeks who the wild one was!
 Jessica was barely two when she received her built-in life-long sister-friend, alternately cooing at Kailyn or informing me importantly, "Mommy, my baby sister Kailyn wants you!" or pushing the cradle or the swing so hard 
Kailyn nearly toppled out!
Once she walked up to her infant sister, as I was holding her, calmly reaching for Kailyn's tiny hand. I thought Jess was going to kiss her little fingers, but instead she chomped down hard! In a shocked, strangled voice I shouted for my husband to "get that child away from here!"  Perhaps Jess was merely demonstrating her alpha status . . . which I'm now told was firmly held until she left for college. 

Apparently, forgiven . . .
The girls telling their Dad, "We want this tree!"
which is several feet too tall for our living room!

High School Graduation!

 Today,  21 years later, the bites and the fights are distant memories.
Kailyn's first choice to celebrate this day is to drive across the state
and spend it with Jessica, (who has been given doctor's orders to rest,
thanks to a recent diagnosis of mono!)

In another week, Kailyn will be back in Ellensburg
and I'll be back in my classroom without her
and I'll be missing her calm assistance;
her patience working with students.
The entire class will surely be in mourning!

Having her choose to stay home unexpectedly
I was remembering dreaded moments from high school days
high drama
sleepless nights
disharmony
constant tripping over too many shoes . . .

Instead,
there was peace
long adult conversations
frequently coming home
to a tidy, organized house
dinner cooking (or waiting)
welcome company and
valued assistance in my classroom

There is a saying
"When God closes one door, He opens another."

Kailyn's choice to not return to France felt like a closed door.
Instead, it was an open door opportunity to
get to know my daughter as a person,
not flesh of my flesh, but as an individual, separate, unique.

I've always loved her; I always will.
But, over the past three months I've discovered that I really like her,
enjoy her company, value her opinions; appreciate her insights.

I thought it would get old having her in my classroom for three months.
I thought she would get bored of it, or sit and read (like she used to do!).
After watching her, and listening to her, I am thoroughly convinced,
she's going to be an amazing teacher.

What a gift the past three months have been.  Kailyn is not just my daughter, she's become a trusted friend. I'm really going to miss her, yet, ironically, I doubt if I'll be sad when she leaves.

Instead, I'll be happy that my friend is returning to her studies (and her boyfriend!) and, like any good friend, I'll look forward to good times spent together in the future.



Nick, Kailyn and David.
 Last Friday night we went to Nick's jazz concert.
On Saturday we spent the day seeing Ellensburg,
the surrounding areas,
and took a walk along the Yakima River. 



Kailyn and I enjoy our hikes, and one of our favorite ones is at Moulton Falls.
I'm already looking forward to our next adventure.
 Milestones . . . birth, special events, and birthdays
Turning twenty-one is a big one!

Happy Birthday Kailyn!  

12 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday Kailyn! What a nice birthday tribute to your beautiful daughter. I only have boys and I envy mother-daughter closeness. Thinking back to my own 21 b-day...I was engaged..just sayin'! Have a good week and I hope the birthday girl enjoys time with her sister!

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  2. Happy Birthday Kailyn. When I was 21, I was pregnant with my second child, just sayin'.

    I've missed you my bloggin' friend. I'm glad you were enjoying life with your daughter. What a treat to have her back and to get to know her on another level. It's something to look forward to. Now, my daughter avoids my classroom at all costs.

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  3. Happy Birthday Kailyn! I really enjoyed the pictures. My doesn't time fly by?

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  4. Happy 21st birthday to Kailyn! And Jessica is the older sister? She sure looks like a youngster to me when I see her at the Great Harvest Bread Company! And Mom, you are so blessed to have BOTH of your girls within a few hours from you. It's wonderful. Thank you for sharing this lovely time in your life with me...

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  5. This was a wonderful post. I loved getting to know Kailyn. I hope she has a wonderful time with her sister. I'm also glad you two are having this very special time together.

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  6. What a lovely tribute to your daughter. Raising children is not easy - then those teenage years come - and oh, all that worrying. However, it all pays off when we see the wonderful women they become and our hearts swell with pride. Well done Sandi.

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  7. Dear Sandi,
    As Arleen has said, this is a lovely tribute to Kailyn. She gave you two great gifts in the last three months--herself and also her presence in your classroom.

    But this posting also says so much about you and what wonderful parents you and your husband are. Seems to me that "the apple hasn't fallen far from the tree." Peace.

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  8. Hi Sandi, I see you've been celebrating two special birthdays over the past month. Happy 21 to Kailyn- always a milestone birthday! I'm really enjoying my own grown children, and I like watching them now that they're parents. Sometimes, we do get to reap what we've sown.

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  9. Happy Birthday to your sweet daughter! What a special post you wrote Sandy! My girl is almost 18 and I'm terrified!

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  10. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KAILYN! ALOHA FROM HAWAII!

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  11. She's gorgeous ;) This is such a beautiful dedication to her.

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  12. Happy late birthday, Kailyn! What a wonderful young woman you've grown into. This is a wonderful tribute to an amazing family. I'm lucky to call you all friend.

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