I've brewed a cup of tea, in hopes the warm chamomile will ease my work weary mind into numbness. There is nothing disturbing nagging my thoughts, no recent lapses in judgement, or worrisome upcoming decisions. I am simply wide awake at midnight. If it was Thursday night, it wouldn't be bothering me as much, as I have Friday off. Instead, I have a teacher workshop all day tomorrow. I guess, if I have to be sleepless, it is better to be heading to a district directed work session on teaching reading interventions in a few hours, than facing 27 fifth graders who got more sleep than I did! I don't really have to be "on" tomorrow . . . I just have to be present.
Sleep hasn't come easily to me for quite some time. I can't remember when I slept through the night without waking up two or three times, and utilizing the facilities at least once. I'm sort of used to interrupted sleep patterns. But usually, I've fallen asleep by now. Tonight (well, now it's last night) I read until about 10:45, and though I wasn't nodding off, it seemed like turning out the light was the right thing to do.
I drifted for awhile, a few songs playing in my head, (don't ask which ones, as I can't remember!) and some random thoughts about blogs I read just before calling it a night. Mostly though, I tossed and turned, unable to get comfortable or fully relax, with my eyes wide open. I still don't feel tired, even though logic tells me that I certainly should be. I've been awake since five am, and in less than 4 1/2 hours it will be that time again!
Nikki, my black Lab, was snoozing in the living room when I walked through. Once she realized I was up for longer than a drink of water, she moseyed into the family room with me, and is now snoring soundly a few feet away. She has no trouble sleeping, or getting back to sleep when disturbed!
There are a million and one things I could be doing, and at first I toyed with working on a project, but I don't really want to be that awake. Writing is about all I really want to do, although even that is boring me now, as it probably is boring my readers!
To save us all, I think I'll answer the call of my book and read until I drift off to sleep.
What do my blogging friends do when they can't get to sleep?
PS ~ I want to thank those of you who left such uplifting and supportive comments regarding my last post. Reading your words of encouragement was heartwarming for both Kailyn and I. She truly feels she made the right decision. For the next few weeks she will hang out at school with me, and finish sorting and organizing in her bedroom (much needed!). This weekend, we are going to work on our plans for visiting Europe in June and hopefully book our flights. It helps that she's been there and has some ideas about accommodations and transportation. Kailyn is looking forward to spending her 21st birthday with her sister, Jessica, in Bellingham. The following weekend she will head back to Central for spring quarter.